I went to school today and I didn't come home. I went to the nurse in the morning like I do everyday. She checked out the latest damage that mother had done. I met with the principle and next thing I knew I was in a car. I was driving away from the school, away from my home, a way from my mother. I was driving away from the pain, the beatings, the terror, the fear, the hunger, the screams, the abandonment. I was driving away and starting over. I David Pelzer was free at last.
Every day mother threatens to kill me. We both know she won't. she doesn't want to do all the work that I do, but if I'm gone she'll have to. I never thought she would kill me, but tonight she stabbed me. She was waving her knife, shouting her usual threats, when the knife slipped out of her hand. I didn't even notice until I felt the warm blood pouring down my side. I am so tired now and light
headed. I've been praying for this. For God to kill me. I was starting to think
there was no God. Was this him answering my prayer? Maybe if I'm lucky, I'll be
dead by morning.
I've been a really bad boy. I didn't do a good job on chores this week so mother won't feed me. I'm starting on my second week of not eating. The stabbing hunger pains keep me up all night. With the lack of food and very little sleep there is no way that I will be able to meet her dead lines tomorrow. When will this ever end? I want the old mother back.
A few weeks ago Mother was sweet and wonderful, but now she's getting meaner every day! I don't know what to do! She only seems to be mean to me. She's also been drinking a lot. I've been doing all of the chores instead of her. She yells a lot and hits me. I don't know what happened. I'm so scared. Some one please! Help me!
Today we took a trip to this really big forest. It had a river and HUGE trees! I loved playing there with my brothers and running around in the wide open spaces. I especially loved spending time with my wonderful Mother. I love her so much.